actually this is kind of interesting, i see this tendency in you that also exists in me where you say a lot but you're still v guarded... like even though you're posting a lot and v honestly about yourself, you're still not baring everything. i do that too, i talk a lot and think that should make me Be Known, but it doesn't bc i rarely ever let something truly vulnerable out...
huh.. not the first time i've heard that about me but somehow i'm still very surprised that even online that's how i come across.. T___T my irls have repeatedly said about me that i'm very guarded and i know what they mean now, but i just can't figure out how to make myself seem more accessible.
i want to be KNOWN i want to make myself known but the fear of vulnerability and exploitation overtakes that. lately i've found everything i put out i've screened a hundred times over in my head and crafted carefully in favor of an image of *making myself known*-ness but it does the opposite.. it just comes across as performative doesn't it.
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Date: 2019-07-18 06:36 (UTC)actually this is kind of interesting, i see this tendency in you that also exists in me where you say a lot but you're still v guarded... like even though you're posting a lot and v honestly about yourself, you're still not baring everything. i do that too, i talk a lot and think that should make me Be Known, but it doesn't bc i rarely ever let something truly vulnerable out...
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Date: 2019-07-19 07:49 (UTC)i want to be KNOWN i want to make myself known but the fear of vulnerability and exploitation overtakes that. lately i've found everything i put out i've screened a hundred times over in my head and crafted carefully in favor of an image of *making myself known*-ness but it does the opposite.. it just comes across as performative doesn't it.
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Date: 2019-07-19 08:50 (UTC)